Sometimes I get a spark of something that inspires me. Such inspiration doesn't always present itself in the best way, though, but I usually try to go with it when it happens. Such gems shouldn't be taken for granted but taken advantage of. It really is that rare.
In the midst of fighting for every drop of energy that can be found wherever it is I can find it, a tiny burst will make its way into the day and nudge me. Okay, I can certainly deal with that. Wish there were MORE of it, but I'll take what I can get and go with it nonetheless.
The fuel for this little 'fire' isn't from a good source, definitely not a positive force, and most definitely not from a pleasant source. Be that as it may, there it is... kind of like when your dog has an accident and you're left looking at it wondering to yourself what you did to deserve such a... 'gift'? lol Okay, okay... enough with lame attempts at comedy. Even so, the conversation with a friend of mine earlier today was what ignited this whatever-it-is and sent me on a journey to try and put my thoughts in order. I found the results of that rather.. lacking.
All this blabbering, to be honest, is just my working through it all. Not the conversation, because that was interesting and creatively invigorating. But the chaos I'm dealing within the thought process at the moment is simply trying to pull together the shards of data that's left from past experience. Anyone who understands this knows where I'm coming from. G knows. She gets it. And, from what I read on her blog(s)... she's been able to run with it without tripping like a clown every step of the way that I've been. Eh. I'm still confident that this purging will eliminate the chaff and reveal the good stuff. I'll be back to discuss that when it happens.
